Hello, my friends!
It has been so long. I wanted to share some changes and insight into my life purpose.
Today, someone posted on FB about being praised for things out of alignment with you. I didn’t get this praise but I did become aware of all the times my mom shoulded on me. “You should teach piano lessons.” “You should work at … because you type well” (or ten-key well) “You should have kept going in the interpreting program.” “You should have done something with interior design.” The list goes on and on.
I decided it was time to clear some of this. Especially because the house cleaning and energy work I do is completely a should, because I can do it. I don’t love it. I do it because I can and people seem to want it. In fact, I actually resent it and being known as a person to go to for energy work about the home.
I thought I had an inner rebel. When I decided to do some inner healing work, I found not a rebel but a crying young lady who was so attacked by all the shoulds that if she reacted to the world, it looked rebellious. After a while of working with her, I was led behind her where I saw a young 3 or 4 year old me. She too had shoulds coming at her. “You should be friends with so-and-so” and other shoulds were there too.
I don’t know what I’m going to do now that I’m no longer holding onto the hurt. I know I feel a desire I have never felt before. I feel capable in ways I have never felt.
Let me tell you some other things. I got the name of my business because my soul sang when I thought of the words Soul Shine Live (and that’s a long i as in alive, not short as in give.) I really didn’t know what it was about. Later, I called myself a Soul Shine Specialist. I have gone through a lot of labels but this one also sang to me. I don’t always use it but I never let it go. I just know there is something about this soul shine thing that is so important to me.
I did a course once on finding your modality. Which is basically your own tools for whatever work you do. One of the last things in the course was this guided meditation in which you saw your modality in its fullest. I wasn’t cleaning house energy. I was working with relationships, especially those with self and God.
I didn’t think I was really capable of this work. It feels so important. I knew that I had improved my relationship incredibly and had done extensive healing work in my relationship with God. I am a single mom and the relationship with my kids isn’t always as wonderful as I would care to have. I felt like it was far from me.
A few months ago, I was given an incredible gift. I learned about Body of 9. It’s incredible. It teaches us about 9 centers of the body and how each person is born with a different one as their dominant active one. It gives you physical things you can do to be more of you as well as ones you can use to gain insight into the other 8 numbers. It was a huge missing piece of my work.
I’m now learning to identify the numbers in people for myself. I’m very excited and I feel like this will be a huge piece to my work as a Soul Shine Specialist. If you want to learn more, you can go here. (It is an affiliate link.)
Back to the title of my post. Someone today said that common statement, “I hate change.” I don’t. I definitely prefer change on my terms. I love growing. Releasing all those should and heavy energy today was a form of change. It’s the kind of change I love. It allows me to feel better and freer. It allows me to step more fully into my soul shine. I loved it when my son married and brought change into the family. When each baby born brings change into our family. When I learn new tools that change my life for the better.
When you stop to think about it, you don’t hate change either. In fact, you would hate life if there was no change. I invite you to embrace change, for change is growth. Nothing in your life can improve as long as you hate change.
With love from my heart to yours,
Soul Shine Specialist
Let your soul shine big, bright, live, and beautiful!
This article was transferred from my blogger blog.